first day of retretat

so first day of retreat and everybody is fucking horny as as can be! haha even from the people i leaset expected from like well i aint going to name ny names. but i got like five hickies from girlies! yay for hickies! hickies feel so damn good! yaya! so tomorrow im sleep ing my ass in because i barely get any sleep each week. I realized that i love bmod but i had penises in particular haha. I thilnk i shoujld just turn lesbian because they undersstand me and they know how to please a woman. haha yeah right i will never turn a lesbian i love the oppose it sex too much..hha well i asked byron if he likes me and he said no he hates me haha.. i knew he was just kidding so im not going to take his oppinions personally. haha chrystA is a mess and so is jackie . I think me and hannah are the only sober ones. hhaha..dude it looks like i got beat up from chris brown looking ass haha. Thats what erica said hahah.


yay for another retreat day! more hornyness haha

Orange Soda is good!

So, i woke up at 9 and i stayed in bed for an hour just thinking about my weekend and my midterm and ish. Then i got ready and went to school. Unfortunately i accidently hit a car while getting off diamond bar blvd. Yeah it was my fault and i wasn't even paying attention cuz there were oncoming cars and i had to make a right turn when i jsut rolled into the ccar in front of me. He was kinda of a asshole so I wanted to get out of there quick. So i ended up calling my mom to comfort me and to tell her that he got my info.

So when i got to school i checked my car again to see if there was any damages and there was just a scratch thank god and the car in front of me, he only got a scratch too. He swears like i totally ruined his car..i was so upset that i couldn't even study for my midterm at 12. I think i did pretty good..oh well

So toinght i have practice..im really excited cuz i need some bmod time . I noticed that everytime I'm out and im not with bmod..i think of something funny we did and smile big haha i love bmod so much..they totally have my heart. I'm so stoked for this weekend cuz we going to big bear. Hella excited!..I'm just waiting for tomorow pretty much. um thats it I guess.


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CLEAN CLEAN CLEAN

So today i woke up and i decided to throw all the negativity away from my life. No drama, thats it. So im pretty positive right now..nothing can get me down. So if you see me..I'm not puting on an act..I'm just really content. the end. :)

Um..disneyland wednesday thuper excited! :) I've havn't hung out with this friend in awhile..Always making me laugh and ish.. Also retreat this weekend! hella excited for that!..There better be no drama or else ! haha alli know is that im spending the weeknd with my bmod fam and drinking for some reason makes it fun! no snowboarding though..its all good..ill prolly eat shit! haha

um..tonight going to a concert in LA...hope this ish is good!..bye!

p.s. il ove justine!

Bmod Weekend...fucked up much!?

so this weekend was a pretty crazy weekend. Friday we had a performance and Saturday was Jowena's party night at the crest. Saturday was poppin though. here are just a few of photos haha from this weekend.

Any who so yea.. saturday was so much fun. first i woke up late and i had lunch with jeff from grv and we ate tofu in diamond bar..that shit is really good. thank you jeff for lunch..i got him next time. Then after kimmy and me were suppose to hang out so we after i came home to talk to my mom and i left to kims. When I got there we went straight to dinner at Tphillips. Massive food..! Me and Kim haven't talk in a long time so it was great catching up with her. So then we went back to Kim and watch movies at her house. We watched Model Behavior becasue i have a mad crush on justin timberlake..you know me. haha then we watched Walk the LIne which is one of my favorite movies. It at 11 when i decided to go to jowena's house because she was having a bday party. I got there in 15 mintues which is quick. When I got there i saw byron, texas, jay, and pek pek, and jasmine and kj.. IT was so much fun with them..I don't think i hung out with them in a long time like that.. Jowena was pretty fucked up! dude she totally was the highlight of the party.

Then i caught so much of jowena falling down and we went to carl's jr. because everybody was hungry i didin't eat though. I can't explain how much fun it was.. no drama..just laughing constantly..I think thats what i needed this weekend. Im so happy that my FAMILY is here for me! but anywho so it was arond 2 or 3 where we lost jowena..she disappeared and me and byron went to sit on the couch inside the rest of bmod followed. we started tossing bottle caps in cups and we had to say MANTLE to make it in! and dude it was so stupid but so fun!..uh..Then i we all went home cuz we were bored and they pretty much kicked us out..what a trip. I got home and slept! shit..what a night..random with laughs!

uh..nothing else really well see what happens tonight..bye !

FED UP

you know when you have friends/bf that don't trust you...what do you do.. when you haven't done anything ?



get over it?

when i say sake you say bomb!

Jowena's birhtday was amazing!

so my day started off waking up at 12ish andi got massive texts throughtout the tnight. So when i woke up i was tired as fuck and i went online like i usually do. So i was talking to jay and we were talking about relationships ish..some pretty deep ish..I don't know why but ive been really emotional..Im proly going to start my rag soon eww.

So I started to get ready around 3 because i was going to meet some bmod ppl at rooted. So when i went there, I was walkling around the corner and all of a sudden i see this cute guy and he was caring these boxes and i was like whatever about it. Then he said "heyyyyy!" and i was like wtf? he knows me? and he kepted walkling. it was so awkward. ahah so i wentto rootedand i saw bert and mel and jay and said hello. Then the same guy comes back in to rooted and hes all " thanks for saying hi" and i was like wtf?! jesse!? it was shotime..with all of his hair cut off..wtf!?..i thought he was some creeper haha it was pretty funny.

Anywho so we just chilled at rooted and i was helping bert with his hw. haha aand me and jay got some subway cookies yumm! so it was 5:30 and we decidedc to leave to our performance at 6 at pomona high school and we got there in time. When we got there pomona girls got bmod massive food and made banners for us.. i feel so happy and special expect they spelled my name "jenisea" haha. the performance was amazing. You know when you do a good job at dancing and you feel like everybody you dance with did really good without saying it. Yea that happend. haha..it felt so good.

So we went to Joe's sushi for my first time and it was really fun. Although i sometimes thought of "" it was an alight night. I love how they don't check id which is the new spot to get my drank on ha! um..jowena was pretty dunzo and alot of bmod ppl kept taking sake bombs like nothing. haha. Oh when i left the chef came over to me to hug me and he touched my crouch haha...random he was pretty dunzo too..and every body saw that.. haha

So i went home and i was watching sarah marshall by myself and was hella thinking about alot of shit..prolly cuz the movie he showed me it...anywho jowena's birhtday party tonight..get crunk get drunk ! im hungry! food please! seee you later!

first bloggin "what a day"

okay...i so i decided to make a blog acciount cuz karl told me to haha. plus i had a live journal but it sucked ass. today i had school and 12 and i could not see the board for shit. so i juss chilled and talked to my friend from class. shes hella koo.we talk about real shit that makes us mad and upset uggg! so later i went to my dads house and when i came a mexican chick came out of his house... which was hella awkard..cuz duh she aint my mom.. damn im over this divorce shit. its put so much pressure on me and im sick of it.

anywho at practice...let me tell you what a fuckin night :/
so we started practice at 7 as usual and it was dope cuz my second family was there and they are so giddya nd happy everytime i say hi. love you bmod! anywho.so we did runthroughs which was koo .. i think in total we did like three runtheroughs all together. haha.. we ended at 10~!!! crazy huh!? anywho so i was reading someones blogger and i aint gonna say her name but she made things so much easier for me to undersand. Shes actually going through a similar situation as of me and she said that he loves this guy so much that he uses his charm to wheel girls in.. and which is true cuz i met him and hes very attractive . but she said that since she lives around 10 hours away from him she finds it easier to let him go when she doesn't see him. And when hes comes in town its so hard becuase her feelings come as strong as ever and she can't control it. I'm totally relating to this chick because its hard to see someone you HAVE to see. But actually since this shit has been off and on..im actually dealing with it. Yeah i have feelings for "" but i can get over him.It is possible...it will be hard but i guess the flaws that i seen are making me believe the truth and it hurts so much..maybe its not meant to be...maybe this is a test to see how i can deal with this situation..what if im going to be like this my wholelife..damn it gets to me everytime. im gladi have my friends who i can count on and be real and staright up with me. They give me the truthand i totally appreciate it. Who knows where this fling will go...all i know is that god is with me through every step and i know this will come a great outcome.

goodnight friends!