thank you brett

Today was an awesome day! Finished my final around 8:30 in the morning so i returned my book and got money for that shit. Christina and me then went driving around walnut area to window shoped at puente hils! I got a cool phone cover for my phone looking ass phone haha. anywho so after puente hills we went to Chris's and had chili cheese fries yum!!! and a small ass sandwich! SHIT WAS AMAZING! as always! Then i went to my dad's and we watched Taken. WORst movie to watchwith your dad especially if your a girl :/. It made me hella emotional cuz me and my dad are going through that same shit.. expect the whole kidnapping shit haha. but yea me and my dad bonded today which made me feell good. But one thiing that really upset me was when i was looking in his rooom i found a braclet and it was kinda cute. I asked him who's it was and he told me it was for me. I got excited and ttried to put it on and then he said right after that his girlfriend bought it for me. Like she can buy my love and shit.. That really upset me cuz now shes tryingt o make some contact with me.. WtF.. hell no.. she ruined my family and my dad did too.. I cant' have another mom fuck no..

anywho so brett came over tonight which was fun. cuz i havn'et seen his ass in forever. We talked about so many things that there was never a awkward moment. Its funny how we used to date eachother and now were like takling about shit girls, guys, family. All that shit.. I am so happy that brett is someone who i Can talk to. Hes such a sweetheart and kind. I love seeinghim happy :] anywho he totally made me smile :] Umm thas it toinght.. update tomorow gnight!

One final down two more to go

So I had my final for psychology today and I thought i did pretty good because i was studying hard for this stupid shit.. I study pretty much the whole weekend so I'm set for that. Chem is really kicking my ass cuz its shit that know one else knows how to do unless you really honestly pay attnetion in class. Im hoping I do well on these next two finals cuz its hella hard and I need a break of school !..All i want is bmod time. It feels weird not going to practice every single day cuz we've been having hell week for the past two weeks now. haha. I think i miss bmod haha
aww!

So my life ends march twenty-six. I''m movingg to east los angeles with my mom and grandma. Damn its going to be so effing hard with bmod and living out there. I don't know how neil peig and carissa do taht shit ..cuz fuck..driving ! please!. plus my classes start at eigh so im pretty muched fucked forsure. Oh well.. I'll get through it some way. Oh i"m going to vegas pretty soon to see my family. I really need to see them especialy lexi..shes my sister I never had.. I freaking love being out there becuase no one judges or hates on people. Plus everytime im with lex she always makes me laugh hardcore. Thanks for always being there for me . :)

I'm so thankful for my life right now! I feel so happy . My friends are the best and I have no negative feelings anymore...Its weird... its like my life is starting over again. I feel lilke I just got out of high scchool and I'm like my old happy self.

In class

So I know I should be listening to lecture right now but i can't. I have so many things on my mind. First of all I have finals next week and I am not even close to being prepared. shit dude when did college get so damn hard. anywho um...bmod is really getting to me.. I love it but practices are really tiring me out and i feel like my sleep is lacking and im getting sick again. Antoher thing I miss my mom. I rarely see her, I think that last time iI saw her was sunday for ten mintues. shit..dude that realy gets to me. I need her so bad right now. I triedt o talk to her about whats been going on and it felt so good her listening to me. It's a wonderful feeling to know your mom is always on your side. I try to put on a front all the time cuz I 'm so sad all the time. I miss my family... I miss seeing my dad,, he doesn't want to see me anymore only his new girlfriend. It hurts so bad.. Its like worst than a wound. My mom is one strong woman and I totally look up to her.

Bmod is one of my loves. I love it so much and I'm so thankful to be a part of it because it takes my mind off of things. I love performing but am I losing the love for dance?...

So I"ve been reading erika's blog and her shit is so deep.. Hang it there cuz i know what you are going though..its hard i know but you will get through it just keep praying becuase God is going to work in mysterious ways.

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Webcams?!

HELLO so i was just looking at my most recent blog and i don't even remember writing that blog hahah i guesss i was dunzo haha... im so stupid haha. anywho retreat was bomb and i got to connect to ppl on bmod on a whole different level.. which is wonderrful cuz i feel less alone. Retreat made me appreaciate everything in life like friends family and other stuff.

BTW i love this webcam ish..its so much fun...last night i was talkling to jasmine on it and it was fun were talking and making faces while we are trying to be serious haha..and today i was talkling to jon ! haha he didn't even have a mic so i was pretty much talkling to myself haha.. hes so funy! :D

Anywho so im so exccited for fusion and ultimate brawl cuz we got in! yay! too excited for that shit! So we have hell week like for a whole month which i don't mind that much cuz i love dance but its getting complicated with school. I have finals the third week of march so im pretty fucked forsure. haha eww.

So im really happy right now.. I have so many friends that care about me and it helps me get my mind of nEGATIVEs! yuck! bmod has my heart now.. and it will always for as long as we stay close.. I'm living life to the fullest and NOTHING is going to get me down.

um i really want to start taking jazz class again, I futching miss it so much and me and regina were practicing at the studio doing turns and leaps and ish.. shit..no bad for havn't done anything since last summer. So yea i need to find a goodass studio so i can get better again and maybe start auditioning again like i used to a couple years ago. So yea i have practice at 7 at the studio tonight...this should be a interesting night..so sum reason i have a feeling its going to be a VERY INTERESTING night . well thats it for now..